wish upon the star

one day after June.. i was supposed to be hearing piece of good news yesterday. been bugging my baby sister for the news.. sadly, unfortunately, it is the same old story... the name is already in the system, but they can't release the invite yet. the package has yet to be confirmed... and it is taking forever... they said, sabar... if it meant to be, it meant to be.

i, humbly believe, am partly to be blame. i wished upon a star, the shining silly single star, of all the stars, i only eyed for that star - 'the' star. i've turned down a good star, a shining one. and still not bright enough for my collection. i still want that one, selectively, the only one. yet, the waiting is endless... all those promises, hopes are way too high. of sudden, it seems too far to reach. higher than the sky. me, still praying, still hoping. families, good bestest friends, still waiting. the star is there. has been there for the past one month. it has been reserved for me. but, i can't have my name engraved on it yet. they said, it's for the best. they said, it's beyond their control. they said, sabar... if it meant to be, it meant to be.


maybe, i wished so hard.. coincidently, maybe, i wished so hard that make it far apart.
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but i may have done something very very wrong that i deserve what i deserve. and all i can do now is pray .. pray harder.


and still wishing upon the star


they said, sabar... if it meant to be, it meant to be.
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