i've been busy, obviously.. and as writing is part of my spiritual healing, i failed to do so in such a looong time. i haven't been writing 'properly' for quite a while.. not that i was sooo contented with my life, not that i have no worries to bitch about, not that i was too happy to brag about things... i just realized the 24hours a day allocation is waaayy too short for a mama, a wife, a daughter, a sister and an employee.. was bogged down with things!
so.. lemme find a topic to talk about. i'm a bit soaked up with adam mukhriz character in adam hawa telemovie in astro. it's not really the story line - that was bad!. it's just that hunk, 'am', acted by aaron aziz was sooo surreal. of course, if you were to asked about the storyline, it was a typical malay telemovie. sad but true.. a guy, a romeo, was caught khalwat (i know they have a word in engish but i don't bother to recall what's in my mind) with a girl he hardly knew by accident, and decided to marry her. of course that girl hate his gut, ran away and he waited for her for eight years, being such a loyal responsible husband. ahaks... laugh at my joke.. it was the storyline. a friend recited me the surah about marriage in Islam "kahwin lah kau 2,3 atau 4, tapi jika engkau tidak boleh berlaku adil, maka kahwin lah satu".. ok, i may have not put it in a proper way, but that's what i was told..which i could conclude, poligamy is default, unless if you just can't be fair (which i strongly believe no normal man can), stick to one wife and be loyal. ok, i'm diverting from the adam mukhriz who 'sacrificed' so much for love to default of marriage.. hmm..
back to adam mukhriz.. he is all a lady would like to marry. he is such a perfect man that go beyond realistic thinking. we, women, never asked for much. all we want is the 110% attention to us. that means, when we were mad, and was about to blast off, the man of our life can tell us "manje, chill, i know you are about to burst and you just have to take it easy".. seems like he can read your mind out loud on your next action. and he committed his time to you. he's there for you 25-7.. the second you think he was so tied up with things of his own, he's there for you.. he even wrote poem for you in the middle of night.. aaahhhhh... sweeeettt, kan?? somehow, he just couldn't start his day without knowing how things are with you. he listened to you on everything, and he even can remember on things you think he won't remember. he tried to ignore you for the whole day, and got worried sick when you decided not to text him when the days was about to come to the end. as i keep on writing and writing and writing how an adam should treat his hawa, i just realized how lucky i was to find my adam. i already did.. he was very special. i was mad at him when he opted to steer his way from going back straight home to meet his friend nearby, but i forgot to thank him for coming back to home safe and sound. i was saddened for he was so bogged down on the maintenance of the house that he spend less 'quality' time with us, but i forgot that he was busy maintaining OUR home! i was taken aback when he overwrites my choice of clothing, but i forgot that he meant well.. ahhh... i am one of the lucky bitch who wins all in love.. sorry girls, the good ones are taken.. and i pray and i pray hard that he's mine, all mine, forever till eternity.. his default is me and my default is himself!
ok, i was supposed to talk about that hunk aaron aziz of how good he was as adam mukriz... he's witty, loyal, romantic, selamba.. i love all about him, and even my 6 year old mum was smitten by him..
and as i wrote this, just like the fish is unaware of the water he lives in, i might be unaware of that gentleman that held me every night long, the man who take me for who i am when he said "aku terima nikahnya dgn mas kahwin tersebut", the man who was there the first time we met twelve-going-to-thirteen years ago, the very same man that i felt like kicking, boxing and swearing once a while, the very same man that without me noticing is my adam... ahhhhh... ain sayang abang :)