Sunday, February 10, 2013


kite ni manusia, semua orang hipokrit.. 

we live in lies,our own lies, and what we want people to see that we are what we say, eat, look, see, touch yada yada yada..fact is, what we say, eat, look, see, touch and everything is not really what we are, but what we want people to think what we are.. yup, it's fake, but face it, it's fact!

... and time flies by, expeditiously.. we got sidetrack, and bit by bit, we got tired. 

we started to realize how much damage we've done to ourselves. do we turn everything back to the reality we know we are or do we just stick adapting what we want people to think who we are?


cantik, di mata perempuan, tak sama dengan di mata lelaki. 

trust me, when we were naive, young teenager girls, getting compliments from the boys were always flattering.. a boy left a note telling how mesmerizing he thinks we are, and we just melts away. a boy stare at us, not blinking his eyes and we shy away. yes, trust me litle girl, we were naive.

that hot red shoe, with nice streak of blonde highlight and matching purple dress may not be perfect and any boy's eyes..but trust me, when a girl stop and look at you and without hesitate tells you 'that top match you purrfectly'.. she was being genuine.. don't bother with any boy that would think you were overdressed..

itu conclussion as i was discussing with the girls.


lama tul tak menulis. nak cakap takde inspirasi, tak lah sangat. masa... yup, time is limited. without realizing, dah february, and most of my times were bogged down with work, kids, hubby, and work and work... en abang dah straight forward ckp apa2 pun kene ingat priority. and i know what my priority is.. tapi, kekadang, bila rasa diri tu berguna sikit, terasa lak bertanggunggjawab atas amanah yang diberi. ye, memang ada rasa takmo keje. en abang mmg akan galakkan berenti keje.. tengoklah.. insyaallah, the time will come. one day, ye bang..

anak3 are doing ok. aivey is getting cheekier. bla bla bla... tak abis2 mem-busy kan diri dia. abang2, rasa kesian lak bila mama stop their ukrc activities.. it was pure selfish mama's decision la kan... mamam malas nak bangun pagi2 buta on weekends hantar gi ukrc.. c'mon.. hari sabtu ahad nak kene bangun kul 7.. udah lah hari2 lain kene bangun kul5.. aduishhh... but then again, these boys won't be boys forever.. they grow up, and one day, nak pergi kedai seberang rumah pun dah tak nak mama teman dah.. while mama is still 'wanted' in their life, i guess i should make the most of it... so, next month, they'll be back in the field kicking balls..


completed the kpi setting workshop for this year. it sucks big time. it defeats the 'challenge session' time when the ultimatum decision was ultimately made by one with higher authority:(


ok la.. nak tido.. 

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