Thursday, April 15, 2010

mind could do miracle

imagine this:


- having a debt-free account, no credit cards monthly instalment
- no need to wake up every workday, just because you need to earn that monthly income
- got to wake up at eleven a.m. everyday (sometimes may be up to 2pm), and good food is readily served on the dining table 
- no need to deal with those idiots, ass-kissers, back-stabbers in the office
- no need to defend anybody, just because
- after shower, walk straight to that walk-in closets, full of haute coutures of designers who you could hardly pronouce their name
- match the dress with fashionable Ferragamo / Gucci / Chloe / Tods and matching stilletos
- the red ferrari at the driveway waiting for that high speed stroll on our own jam-free, bump-less, toll-free highway
- a huge bouquet of wild flowers with teddy and box of chocolate deliver right to your door, from your loved ones, for no reason.. just because he loves you
- set for the appointment at the spa, tip top full head to toe treatment, not worrying on the time and the charges
- spend all the money at those close-for-your-eyes only boutiques.. and nobody asking for justification if why you buy what you've bought...
- taking your own sweet time to fulfill your sweet tooth of great desert bar, without concerning on your flabby tummy
- blessed with well behave, obidient, smart genius kids of your own
- you could just take that private jet of yours, with your bffs, just to check-out the latest Cartier watch collection in Paris


gosh.. i got so many things to write about, and my adrenalin boost so high that i can't stop my imagination running wild.. i'm sure there's a lot more that we can imagine..

but for now,
i will settle with not reporting directly to idiot!do pray for my imagination to become reality.. for now..

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

jewels in one's life

life is all about self-discovery..and i'm thankful
...

she speaks her mind out. she says it out loud. she blurts out words beyond thinking. she shows it when things do not sync with what she thinks is right. at least, that is who she thinks she is.

then, her bffs, two of them, sitting in front of her.. condemning her acts.. she started first.. she questioned  how could a person won't bother attending a brief farewell lunch just because... putting up a one hour fake smile, trying to convince she appreciated the friendship and lectures..  won't harm anybody, right? right? and that ignites the dynamite.. her bffs were telling her how fake she was..is.. and she is.. she loathes that shallow-minded kampung girl and her guts, and yet, she smiles in front of her. she cried for hating the decision made, and yet, she laugh out loud when what she meant was to confront and said i hate the decision. and when she thinks back, yes, she is so fake. when she said that two-faced, hypocrite con lady..she meant it for herself. at her age, she doesn't have to pretend.. she doesn't have to care what people thinks about her.. she doesn't have to put the act just to let the people smile.. alas, she's not eyeing for any good-heart-good-person award, so, she really doesn't have to.. and maybe, just maybe, she prefers not to have a lot of friends, good best friends. among them, she doesn't have to lace her sweet remarks with ingeniune smile. she meant it when she compliments them, and of course she teases them, pull their legs and she knows her friends were okay with the jokes.. prinicipally, she shouldn't act the way she behaves.. but guess it would be too hard to mold her at her age now. 

though it is countable, she knew her friends know her best. she is grateful to have friends like them. she cries like a crazy woman and the next seconds she starts mocking her friends's responds.. she screams at the top of her lung how much she hates that bitch and in a blink of the eye she bought her gifts.. her friends know her too well to take her seriously, but they do.. at least that they show her they still care.. and she loves every bits of that friendship.. she cherishes them in every way.. no matter where she goes, no matter what she does, no matter who she is.. these few friends of hers are true friends.. she hates that person, they loathe them even more; she complains about the pain she's in, they hurt even worst; she yells for revenge, they scream louder; she speaks in german, they respond in french, and they still laugh for the jokes together..

she doesn't want to lose them; the friendship they've built. they are the jewels in her life, and she thanks them.. when all surrounds demand for her fake compliments, the jewels she has left just take her for what she is.. and how can she not be thankful?