Aidan dah grad MRSM

 Ada sikit ralat bila Aboh and Aimar tak dapat join to witness one of your big day, today!

But not to worry, have faith.. This would be one of many.. Insyaallah.. ada rezeki kita kumpul anak beranak untuk more significant events in each and every moment of our lives, ameen.

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AbgDan,

Your journey being an MRSM student didn’t start well.

But look at you today.

Hadza min fadli rob.

Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah 

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AbgDan, 

You told me ‘I felt like I’ve been ‘robbed’ the first two years in MRSM!’

“being robbed?”

‘macam banyak missing opportunities and if I have been given the chance, I would achieved a better result’

and so.. let me tell you this now!

(though, I’ve shared my thoughts with you tadi)

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AbgDan, 

Masa AbgDan applied nak amik IGCSE MRSM, you were so determined to get a place and you excelled in your interview with flying colours!

You outspoken the other two candidates.

Bila interviewers tanya pasal current issues at that time, the two candidates talked about bully and smoking among students, you mentioned about carbon released and hybrid car! 

Alhamdulillah, as expected, you got a place at MRSM TAR. You were ok… but not your batchmates then. They mocked you when you insisted for nominating the name ‘Avicenna’ as you batch name.. They said you were wierd.. and they were rude enough to bully you emotionally.

Alhamdulillah, when they started playing around with your inhaler as if it was a vape, that was when we managed to convince BPM to transfer you to AG.

Alhamdulillah.. you fit well in AG. But, coming from KMS, adapting to not so ‘Islamic’ lifestyle was a shock to you.

‘Ma, ada kawan AbgDan tak posa Ma!’

‘Boh, ada kawan AbgDan tak tahu solat Boh!’

Alhamdulillah.. you took it well when we asked you not to have bad assumptions, but teach them kindly. Husnudzon, be good and help others to be good!

Alhamdulillah.. I’m not going to talk about you and 17 others that were ‘wrongly’ accused for ’bullying’ while you were the one who helped Aiman that night! I’m glad that the accusations being retracted despite the 2-week punishment had been put in place injustly!

Alhamdulillah.. I know you were upset when you didn’t get the LDP post when you were in form 2 despite of your excellent CGPA. But, I want you to stop and look back, what haven’t you achieved after that??? You were a homeroom leader, upgraded to LDP the year after, and was a BWP at the end. Didn’t you see that AbgDan?

Alhamdulillah.. so what if you didn’t get the best award in any subject or even the two major awards .. 

Didn’t you managed to constantly and consistently scored in all your exams for the last five years? 

Didn’t you get excellent results in IGCSE? 

Didn’t you end up being top 10 in today’s graduation?

Hadza min fadhli rob!!!

AbgDan, 

please please please don’t feel that you already losing out! 

please please please don’t think that you’ve been robbed!

your journey is only starting. the first reality gonna hit you hard in the next 20 days (or less).. mama aboh doa yg terbaik utk SPM nanti. 

before you look at those people above you, look at those who wanted to be where you are now! 

you were on the front row today, have you seen how many rows were there behind you?

wallahi, i meant no ill intentions! but i want you to be grateful.. for only by being grateful, you would avoid from being arrogant,waiyyazubillah!

We today may not be the same as we tomorrow… semua tu kerja Allah, not ours to determined. 

Esok kawan kita yang kita tak pernah tegur tu, mungkin akan jadi member kamceng yang pernah berasa hati ngan kita dulu. 

Esok, budak junior yang mintak kita ajar dia masa prep tu, mungkin budak yang akan tolong kita dapatkan keje yang kita idamkan.

kita tak tahu, 

Tapi, yang pasti Allah tetap Allah… itu kita tahu.

ingat pesan mama aboh, Jaga Allah, Allah jaga awak!

AbgDan, always have this in mind: Allah has blessed us soooo much to you and our family, Alhamdulillah.

Ingat: 

Ibrahim 14:7

لَئِن شَكَرْتُمْ لَأَزِيدَنَّكُمْۖ وَلَئِن كَفَرْتُمْ إِنَّ عَذَابِى لَشَدِيدٌ

‘If you are grateful, I will surely increase you [in favor]; but if you deny, indeed, My punishment is severe.'"

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AbgDan,

Mama posting this here so that you and all of us will always remind each other.. 

that awards that we are so much wanted, 

that recognitions that we are so much dreamed of, 

that title that we are so much thought of gaining it would be nothing if we are kot grateful. 

Everything is meaningless without the barakah from Allah. 

Alhamdulillah.. you are a good son, and a good slave of Allah. Insyaallah.. always try to be one!

You passt the first hurdle being a high-schooler, and no doubt the obstacles in front is much more than you can think of.

Here’s my tip - start it with being grateful.

Alhamdulillah 

Hadza min fadhli rob.

Trust me, when you do, all the greatness in life will fall upon you, without you noticing it.

Alhamdulillah 

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Thank you for being such an anak soleh, and great role model for your adik2.. Jom niat nak be better, lillahitaala.

Again, starts with Alhamdulillah.

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Tengok atok dengan jacket dia, terus teringat when Aidan was 5… when I was preparing him for the spelling test…

E.L.E.P.H.A.N.T.. susah betul dia nak ingat time tu.. sampai mama naik hangin, pegang hanger and marah-marah, ‘dok tengok 613 cartoon pocoyo, Elle the Elephant tu pun tak tahu nak

spell!’ jerit mama..

Tetibe, atok masuk bilik, dukung Aidan away and said ‘nak ajaq anak jerit2, jangan ajaq kat rumah ni (masa tu duduk sri ukay lagi)! Ajag anak 5 tahun macam anak nak masuk university!’.. pastu he toom Aidan away and closed the door…

Terkesima jap mama tak tahu cammana nak respond. Atok bukan jenis marah anak… especially anak sulung dia ni.. maka, bila dia tegur camtu.. terus rasa nak nangis.. huhuhuhu

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And today, I know, he is proud of you too, AbgDan.. and so do nenek, tokki, tokde and especially arwah tok wang if she’d be around…

Tok wang selalu teman Aidan pepagi sementara mama nak bersiap gi opis… sambil2 Aidan layan Disney channel 613, tokwang duduk kat sebelah sofa ngan Aidan.. lepas tu, dia gi bawak kat beranda, suruh tengok burung, tengok awan, tengok pokok… Allahumaghfirlaha warhamha wa’afiha wa’fuanha. 

Nenek, Latifah Tak, no doubt, are so so proud of you.. Dia tak larat dah nak travel jejauh.. Yet, terharu when she decided to join in, even just by staying in the car for hours. AbgDan, she loves you, no doubt and you knew it! Nenek suka cakap, ‘Aidan tu budak baik, pandai berbahasa’.. indeed. Alhamdulillah 

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Dan, your journey is yet to start.. and always remember where your roots begin.

Tetiba Aimar

 We sent him off to Kemaman pagi tadi. 

Last balik IKEM as a third former, Insyallah. 

Cuti bulan 2 nanti balik smula, and back to IKEM bulan 3 nanti as budak form 4. Insyaallah. 

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O waktu begitu mencemburui aku.

Sedang si anak-anak ini mungkin masih terburu-buru

Ingin lari laju dari ayah ibu

Cuma satu dia perlu tahu

Bila jauh kamu lari pergi memburu

Jangan pernah lupa asal-usulmu

Bila jatuh diri kamu mengelak peluru

Jangan pernah lupa ada pelukan setia menantimu, sedia untuk mengubatimu

Bila jenuh kamu melawan hasad cemburu

Jangan pernah lupa Tuhan kamu hanya satu

Bila jaguh kamu miliki dan terus maju

Jangan pernah sombong terikut-ikut yang syaitan seru

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Aimar, ada sikit ralat masa mama hantar Aimar kat TBS tadi. Mama garang.. nak cepat... buat kalut... sebab, kalau bas pukul 10, maknanya kita kena ada kat TBS pukul 8... 

Beza pulak dengan Aimar... kul 7 baru nak siap packing, pukul 8 nak mandi, 8:30 baru kuar rumah.. sampai kat TBS kalut kereta berjujuk, pi parking... and all, beratur nak amik boarding pass... gi makan mamak... mujur habis setel semua pukul 9:57am kat escalator nak turun amik bas...... and you realized, "alamak Ma, songkok!"

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am not going to say anything.. I'm not mad... in fact, I've started missing you - just as much as I missed Aboh and AbgDan.... 

somehow, I'm not sure it was the loneliness of the feeling of being alone. 

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Aimar, do know... mama doa sokmo untuk anak-anak... I know you will do great selagi kita rely on Him, insyaallah. 

robbana hablana minas solihin, ya allah. Allahumma ameen.

Good surprises

Should there be one thing that I'd think that people doesn't know about me, I'd say, I love good surprises. 

I love good surprises that made me wanting to make surprises to others. 

I remembered how much I plan for the family to travel to visit Yeen when she was not in KL, so that people could celebrate her birthday but I didn't managed to be there myself. 

I planned for Iris to have her last concert when she was in Bintulu for she wasn't able to attend her as she was warded due to stomach ache (because she ate the cat food for she thought it was koko crunch, for real.. and she was barely 4 at that time?)... 

I planned lots of surprises... for I love making people happy. 

I just love planning. 

I wanted people to be happy. 

But I could hardly recall any surprises made for me by others... except by my hubby - he used to make lots of surprises .. tapi biasalah manusia..mungkin pernah ada, but I vaguely had any memories... 

Truth is, makin tua ni, makin takde heran orang nak buat surprise kat kita... 

hahaha...

koman sungguh jiwa tua ni!

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Does that make me stop giving surprises and planning for others?

Trust me, I won't. 

Honestly, I just realized that my only chances to have beautiful surprises would be when Allah called upon my nafs, يَٰٓأَيَّتُهَا ٱلنَّفۡسُ ٱلۡمُطۡمَئِنَّةُ... 

That would be the most awaited calling and I pray hard that all of us would be getting that calling, tak boleh tak!

Ameen ameen ameen

So, in the meantime, let's just plan for another good surprise. Insyallah, Allah tak pernah tak tahu apa yang kita ikhlaskan. 

Akak miss you, dik

Today is one of those days that I would cry for no apparent reason - and nope, not because it is the 'time' of the month that my 'buddy' comes and visit me, just like many other women!

It just that, today is the among one of the days that I missed my sister much. 

It has been like this.. for quite a while. 

Sometimes, I wish I didn't turn this soft. I wish I could be like I used to be 6,7 years ago when I was so mad at her and I didn't even want to think of her and the others, and I just want to shut everything off and I just want to ignore them just like they did to me. 

But, I blame it on my old age, my hormone and everything.. my heart is not as strong as it used to be. I can't ignore, I can't shut off, I can't not to remember all the good times, great memories that we once used to be, and will always be such a beautiful memory that I'd treasures for the rest of my life. 

And today, I'm writing this down - i'm writing this down, just so that my kids know when they read upon this post, I really love my sister, so much. 

I very much regret on what I did - I just want things to be as it used to be. 

I was reading the book about Surah Yusuf, and I can never stop admiring how much Allah have helped Yusuf and let him be so smooth, strong and sabr. 

Indeed, it wasn't easy, at all. 

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If my sister is reading this, I just want her to know, 

today is one of the days, that my body feel so weak that i could barely do anything but lying down and just cry.. for i am missing her. 

I do. 

Akak miss you, dik. 

Temporomandibular joint - TMJ

 Alhamdulillah 'ala kulli haal

Since last month, I noticed that I do suffer for what I called a 'lock-jaw' but it doesn't really 'lock'... so dok gugel2 symptom, found it, it is called TMJ..hai lah TMJ oi!!!!

I'm not sure what cause it, but I'd be so in pain, physically and emotionally that I would cry whenever I felt it, and even thinking of it.... bila dah sakit ni attack, nak sebut huruf kaf dan qaf sangat payah.. nak zikir laa hawla wala quwwata ila billah tu... tang QUWWATA tu memang struggle.. and so I would cry.. yet, the dzikir would always be my strength when I'm in pain. 

Selalunya sakit masa waktu subuh sejuk... bila sejuk, memang rasa keras semua otot.. Nak cakap side effect chemo radio, mcm rasa lama dah buat chemo radio... mcm dalam denial gak, but then, I have to admit and face the fact that the effect of that treatment could take the rest of my life... 

Allahu musta'an.... truthfully... Allah is the one and only who can help me. Ameen. 

It hurts! It really hurts when the pain came. I could hardly describe it and I'm sure if I were to tell anyone, people could not imagine how painful it could be - it's just a muscle pain... allahuakbar.. if only it's just a muscle pain that can be relief by just a good massage... but it doesn't work that way! and so, 

Hasbiyallah wa ni'mal wakiil, ni'mal maula wa nikman nassir. 

Annoyingly Uncomfortable Sinus Rinse

 "How do you clean your nose?"

Soalan tu, bukan soalan dari adults to kids; it's a questions from a specialist to a mature adult i.e. my new-found ENT to me.. huhuhuh

Bab nak bersih hidung ni, acik memang lemah! gosh!!

I remember those ten years ago, when I had to wash it using the sinus rinse tool... mak ai.. 'bercinta'!!!! 

Here's the thing - imagine tengah makan sesedap, pastu, terbelahak, nasik masuk dan keluar dari lubang hidung....

Exactly, that's how the sinus rinse works!

Annoyingly uncomfortable. 

Dr Shima was asking me to start using it again.. it's for the good, katanya. As much as I wanted not to use it, I have a mission...

I don't mind to stay in current mode, dealing with the side effect, for I've been putting up with it for so long, and it's gonna be 9 years now I've been living with the side effect of the chemo and the radio.. 

But then, I want to get healthy - I want to get back to my feet. 

I can hear less and not much I can do unless I want to opt for the hearing aid. 
I have thyroid issues and still working on it. 

My HB not increasing, and my iron and vit D is not enough for my body... 

My cholesterol is increasing......

and I'm not looking forward to deal with my nose and ears and all sorts..

I want to get healthy, so that I'm all prepared to do hajj... please make du'a for me.. 

Ya Allah, jemputlah aku, abang, mama, abah untuk pergi menunaikan haji dengan kesihatan yang baik, ameen. 

I haven't intensively looking for a place to make hajj... Abang baru kerja ngan KPOC and kalau ikut company, after 5 years baru boleh apply cuti haji. and Abah pun tak bunyi nak buat hajj sebab masih setelkan all his zakat and mama's zakat and wealth management kot..Abah nak make sure memang rezeki duit pergi haji tu betul2 tahir. 

Yet, as much I am longing to do hajj, I know my health are not prepare for it yet... It's about time for me to pick up on my health, and may Allah guides us to eases our niat to make hajj when we are invited, ameen. 

For the time being, I'm back in using the sinus rinse... and yup, it's a pain in the neck!

Her 75th

Hai lah azam..kekonon nak tulis blog hari-hari pun.. masuk 10 hari dah kelaut azamnya..

Hahahaha

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And so, am dropping by my blog this morning. 

Alhamdulillah..

Alhamdulillah, I wasn't aware that today was her birthday..pepagi masa bangun hantar Aivey sekolah tu memang dah ingt..pastu lupa balik... at around 9:30ish, Aunty Singgam called, tanya no tepon Col sebab neigbour (Petronas) belakang rumah tu nak potong pokok and nak mintak permission abah... so, dah alang2 terjaga, I thought quick coffee with mama & abah would be great, and as expected, memang diorang gi kat cafe kat Liberty je lah kan.. 

Sampai Liberty, tengok mama turun kete, dengan baju hijau, selendang mera..pegghh...baru teringat balik besday girl nampak anggun.

She's 75. Alhamdulillah... as time passes by ni, ada rasa risau dan sedih if the time come and I had to be away from them... at their age, and at my health, wallahu'alam... to be around them has always been a blessing. 

Robbana warhamna waghfirna waliwalidayna warzuqna, Ya Allah. 

She looks so pretty, as always. 

Tadi, sampai Cafe, abah was still at the car.. tetiba dia masuk, bawak cake and sang happy birthday song dengan penuh semangat... rugi tak sempat nak amik video.. the view was so cute and soothing, and I really love and appreciate it to witness them, alhamdulillah. 

Mama is 75 today.. mashaallah, tabarakallah... what a lady, she is! 

If I have to described her in 3 adjectives, that would be, ambitious, strong-headed and beautiful. Alhamdulillah. 

May Allah SWT forgive all her sins, and fulfill her dreams duniya akhirah and give her the barakah of life and great health and a beautiful palace in jannatul firdaws, allahumma ameen. 

Sabar mama abah

Just talked to Abah.. usually, I would join them for breakfast.. only that I was so soaked up with things on my laptop that I realized it was 11 and they were all done with breakfast, Alhamdulillah. 

Nope, I am not noble and I am ashamed to admit that. Tiap-tiap doa, mesti nak doa jadi baik, mintak Allah tolong.. 

Pelikkan kita ni? Kita tahu kita tak baik, dok buat dosa memanjang... hatta, walau dah tahu pun masih bermaksiat... Astaghfirullah

Sebab memang kita dicipta nak jadi hamba Allah- sentiasa rujuk, memohon ampun, meminta rahmat dan barakahNya, berharap dan gentar pada pahala dan dosa yang kita lakukan.. moga setiap amal soleh kita diterima di hari pembalasan nanti. 

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Back to cerita abah, mama...

I've been unfair and 'hard' to them... astaghfirullah.... lepas kejadian salah faham ngan Yeen, I always wander why they never bother to help to rekindle the severe relationship we had - only to realize, I'm a parent too... I know, if Aidan and Aimar and Aivey had a fight, sooner or later, they would go back to each other... and I've been warning them constantly and consistently... "salah faham mana pun awak bertiga, never severe your relationship, bukan sebab mama aboh, tapi, sebab lillahita'ala..please help us by saving us and yourself from the hellfire. Jangan buat benda yang Allah dah warning ulang kali!"

I guess, that's how abah & mama position - they are not taking side, though I'd still think they love yeen more..hahahaha... alhamdulillah.

I'm a wild child, hard-headed and never wanted to listen to them as much... amppppuuuuunnnn mama, abah!

As I was reading the book about surah Yusuf ni, I stumbled upon the takeaway from the verse no 18...

Ayat pujuk diri... ayat nak suruh sabar...Yusuf 12:18

وَجَآءُو عَلَىٰ قَمِيصِهِۦ بِدَمٖ كَذِبٖۚ قَالَ بَلۡ سَوَّلَتۡ لَكُمۡ أَنفُسُكُمۡ أَمۡرٗاۖ فَصَبۡرٞ جَمِيلٞۖ وَٱللَّهُ ٱلۡمُسۡتَعَانُ عَلَىٰ مَا تَصِفُونَ

They brought his shirt, stained with false blood. He said, “Nay; rather your souls have enticed you to commit something. But I will bear it with beautiful patience. It is Allah’s help that I seek against what you claim.” 

Dan (bagi mengesahkan dakwaan itu) mereka pula melumurkan baju Yusuf dengan darah palsu. Bapa mereka berkata: “Tidak! Bahkan nafsu kamu memperelokkan kepada kamu suatu perkara (yang tidak diterima akal). Kalau demikian, bersabarlah aku dengan sebaik-baiknya, dan Allah jualah yang dipohonkan pertolonganNya, mengenai apa yang kamu katakan itu.”

I'm not sure I would be as calm as that if I'm in Nabi Ya'kub position - obviously dah nampak comel molek je t-shirt yang kekonon ada darah tu tak koyak bagai.. cuba imagine kalau betul diorang amik T-shirt tu sambil struggle dok lawan serigali..confirm2 lah koyak-rabak bagai... tapi, not this one!

Tu sebab kena ajar kat anak-anak, takyah lah nak menipu.. especially ngan mama aboh... mesti kantoi punye!... 

And menipu ni is very ugly, to some extent.. bila menipu sekali mesti terpaksa menipu lagi dan lagi... Allahuakbar, dah jadi dosa jariah pulak, wa nauzubilah!

So, back to citer Nabi Ya'kub ni, he knew for certain that a wolf do not eat Yusuf... sebab dia yakin dengan mimpi nabi Yusuf yang akan diangkat jadi nabi... dia yakin dengan janji Allah... 

Kita tak pernah tahu apa akan jadi di masa depan, kita doa bebanyak, kalau buruk mintak jauhkan..kalau elok, mintak mudahkan. 

Kerja kita, usaha, tawakkal dan yakin doa pada Allah mintak bantuan selari dengan jadi hambaNya yang taat. 

Masa anak-anak dia bawak balik baju berdarah, bagitau bapak diorang yang Yusuf kena baham dek serigala... apa nabi Yaakub cakap?

فَصَبۡرٞ جَمِيلٞۖ

Beautiful patience is more fitting - seindah-indah sabar jadi penawar!

Mashaallah.. kuatnya iman! Ya Allah, beri aku kesabaran yang indah itu atas setiap ujian yang Engkau qadarkan pada ku, Ameen. 

That was and always be my prayers and I am certain Allah will always give the best!

Nabi Yaakub tak marah bebel kat anak-anak dia. Masa gaduh dengan Yeen dulu, Abah tinggi suara sikit sebab anak sulung dia ni sungguh tak beradab datang rumah dia nak jerit-jerit... I can totally empathise to his reaction at that time..But most of the time, abah, just like mama, will not say a word... diorang malas nak campur, sampailah ke hari ni... pernah dua tiga kali, I asked them why are they not helping to solve the issue between me and yeen, and abah shut me off right away, and so did mama... tahu dah they would respond like that, tapi, biasalah..anak sulung diorang ni memang jenis ketegag sikit..hahaha

Nabi Yaakub knew that Yusuf was alive, but he did not rush to search for him for he knew that Allah would guard Yusuf. Lagipun, Nabi Yaakub takmo expose the crime his other sons did - 

Sebab bila sorang anak buat salah to another, the parent suffers great distress [either way]. Their heart burn for the wronged child if he does not avenge her, and his heart burns for the other child if he exacts vengeance agains her...

Allahuakbar - what have I done????

Mama, abah, I'm a parent too... and I know how distress it could be bila anak bergaduh... and I can never put my position in your position, bila anak dah tua-tua, tak seteru, masing2 ikut kepala masing2, macam budak2....

Amppuuuuunnnnnn mama abah. 

May Allah reward mama abah a beautiful special palace in Jannatul Firdaus bighoiri hisab. allahumma ameen. 

Oh, one beautiful thing I learned from the verse 18 besides beautiful patience is ٱللَّهُ ٱلۡمُسۡتَعَانُ, indeed, we would always need help from Allah and so, ask Him and He will help!ameen..

Yusuf ayat 1 dan 2

 

Dah habis exam, so masa nak baca sume buku2 yang tak baca lagi.. kiasu sangat!

Rasa mcm nak beli buku baru.. tapi, tak sampai hati sebab banyak lagi buku lain tak baca. And this is one of the book...

Bahagia sungguh baca buku ni.. susah nak berhenti.. and there's so many things that I learned about surah Yusuf from this book.... 

And that's why I'm resorting to blog... bear with me, I would want to write each and every page of this book that I've learned.. 

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First ayah [Yusuf 12:1]

 الٓرۚ تِلۡكَ ءَايَٰتُ ٱلۡكِتَٰبِ ٱلۡمُبِينِ

Alif Lām Ra. These are the verses of the clear Book.

Teringat Ustaz Muein bagitau, ada 4 surah dalam Al-Quran yang mula dengan الٓرۚ تِلۡكَ ءَايَٰتُ ٱلۡكِتَٰبِ ٱلۡمُبِينِ, suruh Yusuf, Yunus, Hud & Al-Hijr (Kaum Nabi Saleh, Kaum Tsamud). Semua surah pasal orang. 

I'm not gonna talk about huruf muqotto'ah and the writer's elaboration about this ayah.. kang panjang lak citer dia. 

Let's continue. 

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First ayah [Yusuf 12:2]

 إِنَّآ أَنزَلۡنَٰهُ قُرۡءَٰنًا عَرَبِيّٗا لَّعَلَّكُمۡ تَعۡقِلُونَ

We have sent it down as an Arabic Qur’an so that you may understand.

Dulu, masa takde ilmu, selalu tak paham kenapa dalam Al-Quran banyak Allah tekankan pasal bahasa Arab dan untuk kita paham.. honestly, rasa mcm memang bukan untuk kita sebab kita tak paham bahasa Arab. 

Tapi, bila belajar sikit2, dengar shaykh punye explanation... Alhamdulillah, dapat gaklah hidayah Allah tunjuk, nak bagitau bahasa Arab ni, is one unique language, tak susah untuk orang yang nak belajar.. dan kalau niat nak belajar tu sebab nak please Allah, nak faham Quran dan nak amalkan, Insyaallah... susah macam mana pun, mesti Allah tolong.. janji kita usah dan minta tolong, ikhlas nak belajar...

Start with fahamkan, kenapa Al-Quran dalam bahasa arab?

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okay, ayat seterusnya..kita sambung blog nanti.. janji hari ni, kita dah update blog kita.. hahaha

Alhamdulilah

Exam is over!

Alhamdulillah.. habis all six subjects for this semester dan mengharapkan dapat sambung biasiswa untuk habis belajar lagi tiga tahun, Insyaallah. 

This sem is quite tough - shorter than previous semester plus one extra subject... Tak keruan gaklah nak perabiskan all the classes and session tests.. Alhamdulillah, all is set and done. Tunggu result je... hoping of continuance, InsyaAllah, ameen. 

Lain bila belajar time dah tua ni dengan belajar masa muda remaja dulu... 

The importance of the right intention!

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The right intention, would drive to the right guidance, and would force the right efforts for the best result, bi 'iznillah. 

So, untuk anak-anak, pesan Mama, starts with the right and best intention, which is please Allah, Insyaallah, ameen. 

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We have six subjects this second semester: the aqeedah, fiqh, authority of sunnah, seerah and tajweed. 

I have various opinions in each of the subjects. Aqeedah definitely something that fear me the most in term of its contents. Definitely an awakening. Fiqh is like chemistry ~ interesting, yet intriguing on how the rulings come about. Arabic and Tajweed would always be the add math: tiring while trying to solve and figure out the solutions. But I definitely appreciate the Tajweed live classes the most, despite of the odd hours waking up at 2am every week. It was so fulfilling. The Authority of Sunnah is like physic ~ complicated yet it is what we should be applying in life. Seerah, nope - nothing like history.. I love Dr Muhammad Salah delivering the class in his best possible ways... I laughed hearing about Umar mocking Abu Jahal, I cried when listening to torturous of Rasulullah SAW and the sahabah and many more... gosh, just couldn't get enough of it.

Alhamdulillah..

I wanted to write more.. perhaps in my next post...

I have a love-hate relation with the degree...yet, who could resist the knowledge gained?

... when you think you knew it, yet, there were so much things that you don't know!

Before the New Year - A glimpse to yesterdays

wuuhuu..

So, it's a new year, and as usual, a 'new' refreshed resolution - while many among my friends would wanted to have a healthier lifestyle, keep fit and stay in good diet and all sort things ~ mine, as expected... keep on consistently writing... hahaha.. tell me something new!

But i guess, worth a try in this new day of the new year, insyaallah. 

May Allah eases my path, ameen. 

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Where do I start? 

hahaha... same 'ol question, again and again. 

I guess, the same cliche answer would be, "we'll see how it works, just go as it flow"

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2022 has been nice to us, Alhamdulillah. 

I successfully accepted to be student of knowledge as I got the scholarship of USD950 per semester to pursuit an online degree, BA in Islamic Studies. 

Alhamdulillah.

a-ha!

Let's start from there!

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I maybe not now - maybe in my next post.. 

hahaha..

here I go again...

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As for the kids, 2022 has surely been good to them. 

Aidan did well in his MRSMSPM which was the SPM trial paper with 7As and 2Bs. Alhamdulillah.... He has always been so consistent in thriving good results, and really hope that he wish to further up his studies oversea right after SPM would be materialized, ameen. 

Despite of being excellence in taking care this BWP assignment, and president of the hockey club; he was selected to join the states qualification hockey player, but wasn't his rezeki to be selected as one of the states player. Alhamdulillah. 

Aimar hasn't deliver as much on paper exam results ~ still owing us good result.. hahahaha.. the kiasu me! Alhamdulillah, he's on par with his hafazan, and we make du'a that he would put the knowledge in the most beneficial ways in everyone's life, ameen. In sports department, he did great although didn't win any medals in any competition. The sportsman he is, I'm sure he'd do great in any sport especially in bola tampar that he has passion on. 

Aivey had a good experience playing netball for the school despite the big big lose the team faced during the competition. As usual, the khalifah team might not be the favourite to win any games, but they would always win to charm everyone with their adab and courtesy, Alhamdulillah. Aivey started her online tuition learning BM with Ustaz Syidi and I noticed her BM vocabulary as increased as much, Alhamdulillah... Still picking up with her Quran recitation - that is one major thing we should put more intention in 2023, insyaAllah. 

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As for me and abang, Alhamdulillah... time and age and health is catching up with us. 

Abang being the wiser one, still had to 'tahan telinga' when all three of his kids demanding him to stop smoking.. hahaha..

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Me and health?

We still haven't manage to be in good term..huhuhu..

I had an incident where I fainted for few seconds (perhaps minutes) in Taman Tugu when I had a walk through the park with Shasha and Rozi. It was a day after I found out about my hypothyroid. 

And the hypothyroid is not helping much! I'm still struggling from it - been on prescribed Thyroxin sodium tablets, and nor a loyal visitor of Dr Shamin, the endocrologist in PCMC. 

And early December, I had a vertigo attack, slept for three lonely nights in PCMC and that was it ~ visiting the ENT this month.. so... I guess, 2023 will demand more hospital visit as compared to previous years, Alhamdulillah 'ala kulli haal. 

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Well, I definitely have more to write... but I guess, I'll keep it for later, insyaallah. 

And so, here me bidding farewell 2022, and hell0 2023!

ASSALAMUALAIKUM WARAHMATULLAHI WABARAKATUH