Annoyingly Uncomfortable Sinus Rinse

 "How do you clean your nose?"

Soalan tu, bukan soalan dari adults to kids; it's a questions from a specialist to a mature adult i.e. my new-found ENT to me.. huhuhuh

Bab nak bersih hidung ni, acik memang lemah! gosh!!

I remember those ten years ago, when I had to wash it using the sinus rinse tool... mak ai.. 'bercinta'!!!! 

Here's the thing - imagine tengah makan sesedap, pastu, terbelahak, nasik masuk dan keluar dari lubang hidung....

Exactly, that's how the sinus rinse works!

Annoyingly uncomfortable. 

Dr Shima was asking me to start using it again.. it's for the good, katanya. As much as I wanted not to use it, I have a mission...

I don't mind to stay in current mode, dealing with the side effect, for I've been putting up with it for so long, and it's gonna be 9 years now I've been living with the side effect of the chemo and the radio.. 

But then, I want to get healthy - I want to get back to my feet. 

I can hear less and not much I can do unless I want to opt for the hearing aid. 
I have thyroid issues and still working on it. 

My HB not increasing, and my iron and vit D is not enough for my body... 

My cholesterol is increasing......

and I'm not looking forward to deal with my nose and ears and all sorts..

I want to get healthy, so that I'm all prepared to do hajj... please make du'a for me.. 

Ya Allah, jemputlah aku, abang, mama, abah untuk pergi menunaikan haji dengan kesihatan yang baik, ameen. 

I haven't intensively looking for a place to make hajj... Abang baru kerja ngan KPOC and kalau ikut company, after 5 years baru boleh apply cuti haji. and Abah pun tak bunyi nak buat hajj sebab masih setelkan all his zakat and mama's zakat and wealth management kot..Abah nak make sure memang rezeki duit pergi haji tu betul2 tahir. 

Yet, as much I am longing to do hajj, I know my health are not prepare for it yet... It's about time for me to pick up on my health, and may Allah guides us to eases our niat to make hajj when we are invited, ameen. 

For the time being, I'm back in using the sinus rinse... and yup, it's a pain in the neck!