In times, I learn that being inclusive does not matter ~ what matter is who would want to include you and who won't. Alhamdulillah.
I have so many weaknesses and I doubt that I have any good deeds left if I don't repent. What scares me is if I have no good deeds to present during The Day and there were loads of sins on my back, waiyyazubillah.
And that thoughts give me help to just let go.
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There post of people bidding farewell the their 'significant' figures, and I know I shouldn't have watched it. Alhamdulillah, I did and of course I was teary, feeling being excluded, as usual.. It has been years.. gonna be 7 years and counting.
I don't care about them. Honestly, I don't.
I was more worried of I really thought I'm in the right, but apparently I will be presented of how wrong I was. Na'udzubillah.
WIth that thoughts in mind, I seek Your Forgiveness Ya Allah. And I seek forgiveness for those who have the rights on me, so that they may forgive me as much as I forgive those whom I have rights upon.
Ya Allah, all that I want is to be free sin.
Astagfirullah Ya Allah.
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So, it's ok if they want to include me. If it was my faults, I hope Allah forgives all their sins and may they don't claim any redemptions from me Ya Allah. And should it be their faults, I forgive them, Ya Allah.. I forgive them so that people who I have sinned would forgive me too.
Ya Allah, one prayer that I wish would be fulfilled, guide them Ya Allah.