the routine

the girlfriends...

- those married : how did you manage with the boys?
- those single, with partner: ala, kesian.. sure rindu jauh2..
- those single without partner: jom lepak, nanti when he come back, cannot lepak oredi..

the guys...
- you trust him?
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my no1 bff is on his way back.. a more-than-24-hr-round-trip is not something that neither him nor myself look forward to. it's the end destination that matters.he's coming back after his (normally twenty eight days) long tiring rice-less shift. not much of an option for him, for now. he's the breadwinner, and i'm so good in spending that he needs to earn more than i can spend :) afterall, that is the rezeki that Allah gives to us for now, we are thankful for the blessings.


coping without him around is not so easy. and that is why i really salute all the single parents. you always need to have your significant other, if not fifty percent, maybe less, to complete the chores. send the kids to school, check their homeworks (and even they are only five, don't be surprised that their works pile a mount high up!), drop all meetings and discussions coz the school rings and your kids been vomitting since morning, do the laundry else no clean clothes for the weekend..and the list goes on and on and on... you need two to fulfill the chores, just as much when you've decided to bring a life in this world! lucky for me as i have my friends and families nearby who will defiitely extend their help. it was horrible when i was away from them few months ago.. nonetheless, having your spouse around 24-7 is definitely a go-go.. no doubt about it. hats off to the single parents!


they said, absence makes the heart grows fonder. i beg to rephrase - distance makes the heart grows fonder. yes, we fights when he's around and even when he's not. but without realizing time and distance, we missed each other the most when we are apart - never fails! he's been on the shift for the past fourteen months.. means, he's been away far apart from the family for at least seven months. i should have get used to the terms that he will leave for work and come back when its due. but i'm yet to learn not to shed my tears when i send him off at the airport. i know i will miss him until he comes back. long distance is never easy. especially when he has no choice but to miss out those important events like birthdays and anniversaries. sending short videos for his viewing via emails might help a bit, but never managed to heal the "wish you were here" phrase. it's not easy but we have to swallow. it made us both realised how much we miss, appreciate and love what we have between us.


he's not a control freak. i can still hang out with the girls whenever, wherever. but of course he's my priority. and not having him around, doesn't mean i'll just go roam whenever wherever. there's a gps sensor install in me, and only him can retrieve it.. understood - i may go where i want to go, lepaking with the girls, and he will know. he will.


and the guys, they only have one thing in mind. i can't say i married a saint. he's a man, not perfect but perfect enough for me (chewahh.. abang bagi allowance lebih yek ...)..back to guys and one thing in mind - i won't say that the only woman he will lays his eyes on is me.. he looked at others too, and even i was right there next to him. he would say it doesn't do any harm... i smile. of course i don't buy that! looks can kill! he can start looking, leering and there goes the blast in his mind. every man does that. true! he will agrees with me.. (ke, ye ke?).. so, do i trust him? working far far away in that samba land where bikinis might be their baju kurung back there.. one thing for sure, i know i have to trust myself. i trust myself not to be complacent, to let alone give him reason and benefit of doubts to think even once that he needs other alternative. i trust that I should do my part as a wife, as much as he's doing his part. i trust God is true, and what comes around, comes around. as long as i trust myself as much as he trust himself, we'll be taken care of, insyallah.


for now - just can't wait for him to come back.. miss him hugging me, tightly... hurry back!