fair share

she's too weak she could hardly eat. nope, she's not shorts of money, he's having an affair
p/s: she's not me, la kan..
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i don't understand why men decided to get married, when if in the end they've forgotten their very own wedding vows. as an islam, muslim men tend to take advantage on the previlege of poligamy bestowed upon them. i am in no position to argue or explain about poligamy, as i may said and interpreted things differently. but for sure, as a muslimah, i knew well that if you can't be fair, you can't share your love. men said they can be fair, and i'd say "BULLSHITS!!"...

i am married to a man. looking at my struggling aunties and friends, the single mums, i know i should be greatful to have met and married to that husband of mine. nope, he ain't a noble person, but for now, insyaallah, should both if us knew our responsibilities to each other, never to hurt each other, i know i'll be fine. but on the other hand, i knew those struggling aunties and friends of mine are much better off being single mums rather than sticking by their rat-men. last week, there were another pang to our family. my aunt fainted and her elder son picked her up at the office. and his son called me and told me that his dad is having an affair and mama just couldn't eat neither sleep and don't want to tell anybody, even the hubby. this uncle of mine, much to my embarassment, is no rich neither good looking. his wife is so obidient, and even hide hideous stories about her kids' behaviours from him, just so to avoid family conflict, which always end up we threatening his wife to tell him the truth. his wife work her ass off and sometimes even borrow money from her siblings, despite of the cold remarks from her siblings, just because she need to make sure there's things to be served on the table. his wife maintains her figure, and for a mid-forty lady with four kids, i must say, she still can impressed other guys. his wife is my auntie.the affair - a four-year-old senior from his elder son! four-fucking-years!..twenty years different with him.. staying up north.. and that's all we can figure out for the time being. 
what we knew, this blardy husband can simply text his not-wife-girlfriend that she needs to be in kl, and he'll figure out the expenses.

and excuse my French - what the bloody fucking hell! you can't even give proper food to your wife and kids, and you are giving assurance to that girl who could even be your own daughter! i may want to wish, one day, a guy with four kids will sweep away your daugther's feet and she'll just abandon her family for that guy!.. but then again, that daughter of yours would be my cousin, and so, if you may not be there for that, i know, we, the cousins, will be there to 'kill' her first before she could imagine doing that!

and guys, what is wrong with you people? just because you got that oversea assignment for two weeks, suddenly you are a millionaire who can afford four wives? just because you think you can still perform in bed, suddenly you are Don Juan De Marco? just because your wife didn't ask for that and this and didn't complaint how bad a husband you've been, suddenly you think you are the husband of lifetime? and you will just jump into "Islam allows men to marry up to four" and forgetting the portion thereafter that "you have to be fair - not a second less, not a dime more"...

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am too angry to conclude!